Everything is as it should be, and on its way to something, forever changing from one moment to the next. It’s life… always in constant motion (much like my emotions these days). 😂😂 People come and people go, you leave a job, your kids grow up in spite of your pleadings to stay “little”, you have to start wearing glasses, your body takes on a whole new shape with each decade, you discover a new book that opens your eyes to a new way of seeing and with all of this you realize how true the statement is that “growing old(er) is not for the faint of heart”; or sissies!! The changes are necessary for growth and for me that’s my cue to get locked away in my studio- a.k.a “my bubble”, a.k.a. “my cocoon”!
I’ve discovered the beauty in being lost in my own world. There is an undeniable basic necessity to “cocoon”. Much like the importance of it so to the “butterfly”, it is sheer survival instinct as the very breath I draw to and fro my lips. And if I ever find myself having to explain it to someone, the realization hits me that they haven’t found “it” yet. I learned a few years back I will not make apologies for having found mine. Sure there are times this causes an irrefutable amount of pain; but there is more so when you deny and turn your back on who you are for the sake of appeasing other’s. This inevitably takes you on a wild, crazy, scary, exciting and often times an imaginative, poetic ride. When you let go of the reigns, learn to trust, and let the course guide you, an alluring journey begins to unfold. The journey has a way of whittling away of all that does not serve your spirit for the higher being we all are and dwindling it all down to the bare bones, whether for the sake of sanity; or mere essence to survive. By ridding anything that is holding you back from pure marrow: “light and love”, and taking those first steps to change, you find yourself without hesitation seeing and identifying yourself in a new light, in a new and positive way!
Life sometimes has such a wonderful way of taking you right pass the hopes and desires of your heart and slamming you right into what you need. Whether it is the sudden and unexplainable desire to exit stage left, getting off the roller coaster for a bit, reclaiming your importance to the universe, quit envying the Jones’, spend more time doing what makes you happy… the list is endless and is curtailed to just “you”. Whatever it is you need, the lessons that are on repeat, take heed, and surrender to the pauses. It is a breathtaking revelation when one pauses and then glances up to see the changes that are occurring. There becomes a longing for more of it.
Becoming more apparent to me with each passing day, these transitory periods of which I find myself reveling in awareness of change is necessary; change is good, I have been born a witness to this basic urge to just.. “be”! No expectations of being anything other than who I am right now-this moment; or even the next. These moments gloriously strung together in unison; coming fast, then slow, then to an almost out of body existence are laying the very vital foundation of re-growth! A beautiful rebirth of stripping away all that binds, all that blackens your soul, all that simply for lack of a better explanation.. must go! So I embrace the rudimentary transitions as my “quest” into being and I hope you find what aids you into discovering your bliss in life!
~ ❤ & light ~
P.S. This painting is available for purchase and please shoot me a message if you are interested in buying it! 🙂