Painting for sale. ~ ❤ ~
When the days are long and the nights are longer and sometimes living in the “now” is not where you want to be, sometimes one must close their eyes and envision all the things that are on the horizon… And sometimes that’s all that is needed to see beauty even on our darkest days and during our tribulations!
I recently entered into an abstract juried exhibition “Abstract X” hosted by Southlight Gallery this past week. Imagine my surprise when I learned that two of my pieces had been selected to be a part of this show (squeal)! It’s been awhile since I’ve been a part of a show; or even held a solo exhibition. I have been so busy painting away, working on this new series so that I have a ‘body of work’ to showcase, it’s left little room for anything else. There’s always some trepidation to paint your heart and then unveil for the world to see and comment on. You do wonder if there will be those it resonates with as it does you? I’ve learned from family and friends they are drawn to either one or the other series I paint- hardly ever both. And that’s okay. That is art! And the one’s I think are my weakest paintings, usually wind up being the one’s everyone loves. Go figure! Lol
For me the tree series allows me to explore my relationship with nature and my experiences in a much different manner than when I do the abstracts, for example. There’s a “peaceful” space that lies in the monotony of creating a thousand leaves. It’s like my “Into the Wild” a thousand mile journey of a woman finding herself and losing herself simultaneously via a paintbrush vs. the trek through the wilderness. And then you take a look at my new abstract series and you see a new outlook on life, a new twist, a variation of “me” and I am having a blast pushing and exploring techniques, and stumbling along this new path more than ever. In fact, I am batting/painting about a 50/50 success rate. But that’s okay too! My mom always reminds me of Babe Ruth in these types of situations. “Remember sweet girl, he may have had the most home runs; but he also led the league in most strike outs!” That is my license “to let go”. So much of the time we can live in “FEAR”, that we become paralyzed to venture out of our comfort zone. I guess really the delving into the abstract region has helped me in that respect. So I just do it! No overthinking (for the most part) and funny thing, it’s usually when I am in the middle of pushing pass the “I totally screwed it up” phase, that it begins to emerge and transform into what I didn’t plan and a much more successful painting than my original sketches or ideas.
This whole experience of “you never know until you try” gave me the courage to reach out and to enter into the exhibition. The night started out with my mommy showing up to pick me up with flowers in her hand to celebrate the night! Melting!! And my oldest, Lindsay, and a couple of her friends showed up for support! That seriously made my night! I had such an awesome time at this show. My mom did too! It was one of her favorites she has been to. It wasn’t because I happened to be in it. It was the vibe! There was just an easy going, laid back atmosphere and everyone we encountered, both the patrons, as well as, the other artists, we’re just fun and amazing! I love going to shows where there are so many different types of people underneath one roof. It allows me to relax and have fun. And I more times than not, leave feeling more inspired and ready to hit the studio again. I absolutely love being a part of a show where honest to God there’s so much damn talent it’s crazy. It challenges me to be better in every aspect of an artist. I’ll see a new line, a new technique I’ve never explored, a new color combo, it’s like being a kid in a candy store! As we walked around taking every artist’s work into our spirit, it made me feel alive and so grateful to be given a chance as an emerging artist to be a part of this experience. Blessed! When I met the gallery owner she was so warm and inviting and we embraced in a hug. I hug everyone! It’s just me! Lol When she told me that I received “honorable mention”, for both “To the Sea” and “Within the Light”, oh my God, I jumped! No really like a little kid. I jumped, squeaked and clapped! I look back now and giggle thinking of that first impression. However, that’s me- a goof ball still at 44! 😉 She told my mom and I to go check it out. So we high tailed around the corner to find one of my pieces, and my mother was grinning from ear-to-ear when she spotted it in the front room and screeched, “It’s in the window!” At that moment, I am not sure who was more excited, me or my mums? That made my night! To see my mom so proud of me, knowing of my ongoing trials and tribulations, all my hard work, long hours, and sacrifices, her constant support- I was recognized! I received an “honorable mention” on both of my pieces entered. Truth be told, that is just as much for every friend who buys and supports my art endeavors, for each of my family members who have sacrificed not seeing me as I live in my studio, and for their constant spiritual, moral and financial support! It’s for them too!
I would like to express my gratitude to Pam Zambetti, director of Southlight Gallery, for giving a new artist the opportunity to be a part of your gallery and a platform to be seen. For those who voted for me, “thank you, thank you, thank you!” For the other artists, “Thank you for the memories and the inspiration!” And for those who are on this journey with me, “Hell yeah! We did if!” Onward!
~ ❤ & light ~
I suppose a considerable amount could be said about having the right kind of perspective in life. I also wholeheartedly believe that it is a choice, in many ways, on how one looks at the events that unfold in their life. I have had to make tough decisions, as we all have, about the direction I see for myself. This means choosing to “walk away” for what does not ultimately serve my higher being. The beauty of it all, I wouldn’t change any of it. As with anything in life, I am learning. I am learning to “let go”, I am learning to “stand up for myself”, I am learning “what I want-matters”, and I am learning “I have a lot to say”. Okay, so maybe that last one is ridiculous since I have ALWAYS had a lot to say. However, my voice matters, if only to me!
I no longer fret about tomorrow, not really. I no longer allow myself to be “bogged down” by all the visions of what has not even come to fruition. This does NOT mean that I do not dream. I do! I dream about a better life for my girls’. Everything that I am working towards is for them and selfishly; or better yet, with self-interest, is for me. As I work towards achieving my goals to be an artist that can make a living at what I love to do, I see the chapters that end before my eyes as not an ending; but a beautiful unknown beginning. And that is exciting! It is afterall, “A New Dawn”.
Today I was thrilled to get my hands on all of the photos of a recent photo shoot by Stacy of SLN Studios. She is extremely talented; but above all else, one of the MOST beautiful spirits you could ever have the pleasure to meet. To be able to have her as a friend, a loving guide on my journey for seeking my dreams, well that folks, is why I know I am blessed!! If you get a chance check her out: www.slnstudios.com and like her facebook page: www. facebook.com/slnstudio
I know it has been forever since I have blogged anything, though I have from time to time, perused through photos and read other’s poems, and stories. They bring so much joy to see all the people in my life sharing who they are, where they want to be and how they plan to get there. 🙂 Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your lives!!
There has been tons of stuff to share. I am making my way through ALL the ideas, newly commissioned pieces, painting show(s), joining an art organization (TAC), donating paintings to “Hands on Jacksonville”, sketches for the children’s book, getting my prints ready for sale, raising my squirt “Savannah Rose” aka “Boo” aka “Boo Meister”, helping my beautiful eldest, Lindsay Marie, (a Junior in college)… make her way through her own journey, and working full time. Can you say A LOT of late nights going on over here??!! Geesh… trust me when I tell you that I do NOT look remotely like that photo above at this moment. I am writing this blog with a mask on my face, wearing green plaid sweatpants, purple striped socks, t-shirt and hair in a pony tail…yeah baby!! 😉 LOL I am going on about three hours of sleep for day four… basically I could be an extra in the new show “The Walking Dead“! True Story! And honestly, it is NOT possible to get it all done in a day, contrary to my head telling me that I can. I have to remind myself: Stop! Breathe child! You just started this journey just shy two years ago. It will get done when it is suppose to be get done, and not a moment sooner!!
If I were to be completely honest… I am on my way to “peace”. It IS a journey AND the most amazing one at that!!
What do I wish for all of you?? LOVE. PEACE. GIGGLES. LOTS OF GIGGLES.
Until the next log in session… 😉
When nothing makes sense outwardly… Seek the “zen” inwardly…
And then and only then, one begins to find the way…
And should it happen at the end of the day, that no truths have been revealed…
And should you still be walking among a barren land of waste..
then trust this one nugget: regardless if it is ever returned…
“Always choose kindness!”
~ ❤ and light ~